It's over
After 2 years of love
joy
fear
pain
It ended
The torture your soul has endured may now end
I take the demons I brought into your life
And you will have clear thoughts
Or go back to old ways
That you threw in the fire of understanding wrong
Because we are creatures of habit
The next few months are going to be hard
If I see your light from the corner of my eye
I may turn and want you
to hold me
But we can't
After 2 years of love
joy
fear
pain
It ended
The torture your soul has endured may now end
I take the demons I brought into your life
And you will have clear thoughts
Or go back to old ways
That you threw in the fire of understanding wrong
Because we are creatures of habit
The next few months are going to be hard
If I see your light from the corner of my eye
I may turn and want you
to hold me
But we can't
Is It Allowed?
I'm mad at you
But is it allowed?
Will it make you run
Even further than you are now
Or will you finally let go
And be you again
I'm crying for you
But is it allowed?
You seem not to want anything
From me, from anyone
Other than the abusers
Who are responsible for where you are
Call me
Or is it not allowed?
You may be wrapped around
Some other finger
Telling you how high to jump
And where to land
But is it allowed?
Will it make you run
Even further than you are now
Or will you finally let go
And be you again
I'm crying for you
But is it allowed?
You seem not to want anything
From me, from anyone
Other than the abusers
Who are responsible for where you are
Call me
Or is it not allowed?
You may be wrapped around
Some other finger
Telling you how high to jump
And where to land
We Must
Sometimes we weep
Whether we were right or wrong
Sometimes we laugh
Even when it's wrong
Then there are the occasions
That slap us in the face
Make us eat shit
Put us in our place
We must keep moving
Whether fowards or back
Little of the future
Is up for attack
We can't live on memories alone
But must take nourishment
From everything, even those that leave us stone
And walk past evil and dread
So we can grow into humans
Living, not dead
Whether we were right or wrong
Sometimes we laugh
Even when it's wrong
Then there are the occasions
That slap us in the face
Make us eat shit
Put us in our place
We must keep moving
Whether fowards or back
Little of the future
Is up for attack
We can't live on memories alone
But must take nourishment
From everything, even those that leave us stone
And walk past evil and dread
So we can grow into humans
Living, not dead
I Left
I left
I let the door close
And heard you turn the lock
I hauled my belongings away
No turning back
But now
I drive around
Lost
Trying to remember
Why I did the leaving
And see anothers shadow
Where mine once strolled
Yet I avoid you general vacinity
If I see you I'll beg
Like you did the night
I left
I let the door close
And heard you turn the lock
I hauled my belongings away
No turning back
But now
I drive around
Lost
Trying to remember
Why I did the leaving
And see anothers shadow
Where mine once strolled
Yet I avoid you general vacinity
If I see you I'll beg
Like you did the night
I left
Rain Storms
The rain is falling
And my mind is racing
Words sound like the puddles forming
Under my window
I try to concentrate
But the lightening only illuminates
Bits
Pieces
And revelations boom
Then the gentle whisper
Of thousands of thoughts
I can't make out the individuals
Only the steady hum
And the revelations echo
A common sentiment
Love
Loss
Cleansing, renewal
As the power cuts on and off
I wait for the thoughts
To pronounce themselves
As the hail hits the roof
And my mind is racing
Words sound like the puddles forming
Under my window
I try to concentrate
But the lightening only illuminates
Bits
Pieces
And revelations boom
Then the gentle whisper
Of thousands of thoughts
I can't make out the individuals
Only the steady hum
And the revelations echo
A common sentiment
Love
Loss
Cleansing, renewal
As the power cuts on and off
I wait for the thoughts
To pronounce themselves
As the hail hits the roof
You Are Not Esthero Bitch
If you're in tha mood
I got my dukes up
Ready for a revolution
And I may not have hip-hop in my veins
Or legs that go on for miles
But I have dignity and pride
And don't have to resort
To whispering sweet evils in his ear
But you have caused my greatest fear
And I've told him to go, get away
So he can be a better man
Than either of us could let him be
Your wicked ways
My naive backwoods world
And him stuck between
A bitch and a slave
I sing melancoly melodies now
Because your succubus words
Stained what was left of his love
And you did it
Because he wouldn't have you
He wanted me
Hopefully, he has enough sense
To see your bullshit through
And tell you to take a long walk
Off that short plank
Into the abyss that you came from
I got my dukes up
Ready for a revolution
And I may not have hip-hop in my veins
Or legs that go on for miles
But I have dignity and pride
And don't have to resort
To whispering sweet evils in his ear
But you have caused my greatest fear
And I've told him to go, get away
So he can be a better man
Than either of us could let him be
Your wicked ways
My naive backwoods world
And him stuck between
A bitch and a slave
I sing melancoly melodies now
Because your succubus words
Stained what was left of his love
And you did it
Because he wouldn't have you
He wanted me
Hopefully, he has enough sense
To see your bullshit through
And tell you to take a long walk
Off that short plank
Into the abyss that you came from
To Where?
Somewhere in the back of my mind
I feel the claws of desperation
Scratching my good intentions
And marring my judgment
Scaring my delicate psyche
Till I want to curl in a ball
And sleep away eternity
Yet, I can not
Will not
Curl up and die
I want to be happy
Simple, pure
Happiness
Where has it all gone
Has it always been so illusive
So far off and small
Or is it the mind chemistry cemetery
Where it has gone off to die
Then be reborn with hyper
Bouncing and jumping
Fighting and singing
Then from the far reaches
Of some inner space
That hasn't been seen in over a decade
A light shines
Ever so dully
Enough to make one uncurl
And look up
To raise your head
And look around
See what you've been lying in
I feel the claws of desperation
Scratching my good intentions
And marring my judgment
Scaring my delicate psyche
Till I want to curl in a ball
And sleep away eternity
Yet, I can not
Will not
Curl up and die
I want to be happy
Simple, pure
Happiness
Where has it all gone
Has it always been so illusive
So far off and small
Or is it the mind chemistry cemetery
Where it has gone off to die
Then be reborn with hyper
Bouncing and jumping
Fighting and singing
Then from the far reaches
Of some inner space
That hasn't been seen in over a decade
A light shines
Ever so dully
Enough to make one uncurl
And look up
To raise your head
And look around
See what you've been lying in
7 Days
Day 1, I knew this was going to be tough
With you asking, pleading for me to stay
I knew things would not be the same
Yet I decided to go with my gut
I cried there in your living room
Knowing this was the end
Day 2 seemed to come and go
Other than the single text
Asking me why I was telling everyone
I was not at the bar
A simple joke gone wrong
Like two years of our lives
Day 3 I moped at the bar
Saw your best friend
Who used to be mine
And tried to stay clear
Of any drama there
Day 4 I tried to have a good time
Out with friends, family
Cut my hair in rebellion to you
And as hard as I tried
My thoughts circled back
Day 5 was a blur
Sleep and work
Consuming my every waking moment
So that I could not think
Could not ponder
All these things
Day 6 was more the same
My work suffers
At the hand of this fate
And I wonder
Why my phone does not ring
Why there are so few calls
So few attempts
For me
Day 7
Today
Why do I miss you so
Why have I only cried that one time
When you pleaded
And I knew
I could not keep on
Yet here I am stuck wishing for a call
A text
Something to make me whole
And now
A lonely tear falls
As I drift to a far off sleep
Where I yell
"Don't stay"
To the crying sheep
With you asking, pleading for me to stay
I knew things would not be the same
Yet I decided to go with my gut
I cried there in your living room
Knowing this was the end
Day 2 seemed to come and go
Other than the single text
Asking me why I was telling everyone
I was not at the bar
A simple joke gone wrong
Like two years of our lives
Day 3 I moped at the bar
Saw your best friend
Who used to be mine
And tried to stay clear
Of any drama there
Day 4 I tried to have a good time
Out with friends, family
Cut my hair in rebellion to you
And as hard as I tried
My thoughts circled back
Day 5 was a blur
Sleep and work
Consuming my every waking moment
So that I could not think
Could not ponder
All these things
Day 6 was more the same
My work suffers
At the hand of this fate
And I wonder
Why my phone does not ring
Why there are so few calls
So few attempts
For me
Day 7
Today
Why do I miss you so
Why have I only cried that one time
When you pleaded
And I knew
I could not keep on
Yet here I am stuck wishing for a call
A text
Something to make me whole
And now
A lonely tear falls
As I drift to a far off sleep
Where I yell
"Don't stay"
To the crying sheep
Hmmm (Our What If?)
We never met
Nor will we ever
But you brought out the best
In everyone who never
Saw you, met you
Who never will
You
Who will always be a myth
And always a "What If?"
Nor will we ever
But you brought out the best
In everyone who never
Saw you, met you
Who never will
You
Who will always be a myth
And always a "What If?"
Lima Beans
When lima beans fail
The nurshiment lacks
But all who loved them
Know it's for the best
One day
The lima beans will come in strong
And will heal us
From the seasons of loss
And the time of none
Will be only a myth
Slowly forgotten
Like Roma
The nurshiment lacks
But all who loved them
Know it's for the best
One day
The lima beans will come in strong
And will heal us
From the seasons of loss
And the time of none
Will be only a myth
Slowly forgotten
Like Roma
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