Thursday, January 26, 2012

I'm Easily Amused

I find that my article on Marvin Harris has so many more views almost 3 years after I originally posted it than any of my new posts!  I love it!  I'm glad that my piece on Marvin Harris and Cannibals and Kings has people so intrigued!  I'm glad to see that others like cannibals and Harris as much as I do :D  Seriously, that makes me happy.  I have many things I address in this blog but this one makes me the happiest!

Wednesday, January 25, 2012


For the first time in my entire life, I actually understand what a trigger really is.  However, my opinion still stands.  To use a trigger as an excuse is unexcuseable!  I've finally been diagnosed with PTSD and have triggers.  However, I do not allow my triggers to control what I expose myself to or who or how I interact with others.  Yes, people accidentally trigger me but it is not THEIR responsibility to mind their words.  It is MY responsibility to mind how I react to those triggers.  Do my triggers affect my relationship? Yes, they do.  Who's responsibility is in my relationship to mind my actions? MINE!  So if you have triggers, it is YOUR responsibility to control YOUR actions, not those around you to mind what they say and do.  Just saying

Monday, January 23, 2012

I have no room to talk but.........

I have no room to talk but if you are going to say the trauma in your life has shaped you into the confused, fucked up, overly emotional person you are today, please, for the love of all that is holy, make sure that the only trauma in your life is NOT your momma not lovin you enough!  Unless you've gone through MULTIPLE sexual abuses, followed by physical abuse, followed by being stalked WHILE being abused by one of your parents, WHILE being sexually abused still, followed by physical abuse, followed by bullying, followed by adult rape.... oh yeah, this doesn't even cover it..... yet I still act like a sane, rational human while in public.  The only person that has to deal with my regressions is my husband, who is the 2nd most patient human you've ever met, only trumped by my step-dad (who I call Dad), because he is the only person that I TRUST enough to act like this.  I CHOOSE to act like an ADULT in public.  If you are acting like a 3 year old while in public and are my age than maybe you should seek therapy.  I sought it, only because I wasn't acting my AGE in PRIVATE.  I got a grip a long time ago and I'm so sick of seeing people around my age say that DUE to abuse they went through they are sad fucks with no potential.  HELLO! You only had Mummy hit you ONCE with a brush or a rolling pin, get the fuck over it!

To those that don't understand abuse... don't worry, you grew up adjusted and probably HELPED those that were being abused in so many ways overcome what they were going through (Jenny, you helped me growing up more than you'll ever know).  And even those who may have been going through less but still abuse, you helped those going through worse than you.  I know when we were all younger we didn't talk about what was going on at home, but we kind of all knew who was going through hell and who wasn't.  We all affected each other in such great ways, even the bullies helped you develop.  So those who try to say they are weak and feeble for what they went through, go ahead and just off yourself because you obviously have ZERO strength and will die after a paper cut of reality anyways, so finish it.  Do you know after all I've gone through how many times I've attempted suicide? ZERO! Yeah, you heard that right, I've attempted suicide ZERO times.  Do you know why?  Because I knew that suicide is a cowards way out and running away was way easier

Ok, my points have ran out and I'm sure Ive pissed off some folks, good, life goes on