Since being in Germany, I've visited a few places, but not nearly enough. I finally left Germany earlier in July. I spent a week in Amsterdam, camping on the east side of town at a place called Camp Zeeburg. I absolutely LOVED it! I pitched my tent right by the water and was greeted in the morning by the birds, and one morning a spider. I explored Amsterdam by foot and public transit, and rode a Dutch style bike (cruiser bike) through a park in Zeeburg. The entire experience was both spiritually uplifting and physically invigorating.
Waterfront near Zeeburg
I also have had the privilege of meeting some wonderful people who've helped me grow spiritually, both my gifts and my heart, here and I'm so thankful. Before leaving Colorado, I had the wonderful opportunity to be gifted a few tarot decks and they have helped tremendously in figuring out what I'm dealing with. I've learned that "evil" is relative and is about perception. You really have to flex your sensing "muscles" before banishing anything, but always have your guards up. I've learned the art of wards in a way I never thought possible in Texas. I've discussed before, maybe not here, the craziness that is Texas on a spiritual level, and this is totally different. Maybe one day I'll tell the story of how I met Loki or how I met Morrigan back in Texas all those years ago, but I won't go into that now or into the fey, alfar, and elementals that are around here.
I have plans this weekend to visit Rothenburg and in September I'm planning on going to Romania. I've decided that camping through Europe is the best way for me to go. Not only is it WAY cheaper than hotels and hostels, but you get to commune with nature, the old trees and waterways that make up the stories we were told as small children, in a way you would never experience staying in a brick and motor building. When I go to Rome, I've already found a beach front camping site I will use. Thanks to my experience in Amsterdam, I'm no longer apprehensive of staying near water. I've learned a way to keep water spirits, which in my experience are the most likely to be nasty and/or evil things. I can't wait to be on that beach near a city I only fantasized about in Latin class 16 years ago. To be near a place that is ancient, but no where near as ancient as places just south on the other side of the Mediterranean.
I could go on in length about the beauty that surrounds me, and I will probably go on ad nauseum in future post about just that. I'm in awe. My camera can not capture the essence of what I see, even if I had a fancy DSLR.
One last note before I close this post: I have finally found myself in a position as a leader of a spiritual group. When I was young, I always knew I had the potential for something like that; however, as I got older, I became lackadaisical, but also apprehensive about being a leader other than in the work place. I'm afraid I'll give bad information or scare people off with some of my more controversial ideas, i.e. evil being relative and all the fey/alfar stuff, oh and chaos magic and practices. However, I'm finding that, despite my social issues, people respect me and listen. This is truly humbling and makes me take pause at exactly what I say and not just pop off with whatever comes to mind. I also make sure to point out that what I'm saying is unverified personal gnosis (UPG in future posts) so that those I'm talking to know that, though it is my personal experience, there is no historical evidence, at the moment, to verify my beliefs. I think much of what we call dogma, though one can show passages here and there to prove one's point, is UPG since many ancient, holy texts have repeatedly been mistranslated or the parts people use are taken wholly out of context. I'm so blessed to live this experience. And the best part is, B almost literally pushes me out of the house, forcing me to face my fears and social anxieties to overcome them and experience my dream like I would never do before. I'm finding that I can actually be alone and be happy. I give that all to him, and a really good friend I met here.