100 Things! (31-40)

Again, sleepless, plus I am hoping that writing a small blog will get my fingers moving to type up this paper that I'm so stuck on. So, here we go:

31) I am prone to ear infections. Obviously, since I just got over one. I'm also prone to sinus infections (still getting over that). I am not sure why I am prone to these, but I always have (even before I started smoking).

32) I smoked for 12 years. I started in June of 1997. I put them down recently. Ok, I put them down the night before my trip to see B (love you dear!). Why? Cuz I made a promise to myself I'd quit when I graduate, and since B doesn't smoke, it seemed the perfect opportunity to put try not smoking. It's worked so far.

33) I like to cuss. I used be told I cussed worse than a sailor. It's not that bad anymore, too many kids around me, but I still can cuss up a blue streak. I can't help it. You should hear me during a Bears game.

34) The first video game I ever beat was Super Mario Brothers. The second game I ever beat was Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. The third game was one of the Sonic games. The next game I beat was Final Fantasy X... It's a bit sad really, lol.

35) I am under the impression that my biological father may have other children besides my baby sister and myself. I would not put it past him.

36) I repeat myself, a lot. I am not sure why I do. Maybe it's the fact that I've always had to But when you come from a family like mine, you don't get heard and have to repeat yourself. B doesn't seem to mind... yet, lol.

37) There are two names I hate to be called and they are "retarded" and "pussy." I am neither, but got called retarded enough growing up due to my emotional outbursts. I got called a pussy regularly when I got out of the Army. There are only a few people I can tolerate it from and that's because I know that they are truly playing and not trying to hurt my feelings.

38) Besides those, call me what ever names you want. I've developed a pretty thick skin over the years and it's a good thing cuz I like people with what appear to be "mean" senses of humor lol. My good friends all like to show they care by picking on each other. I don't mind one bit.

39) I obviously have issues with insomnia. I have for most of my life. I do my best though to keep my sleep issues from bothering those I live with. However, occasionally I am not very good at that and have been known to text people at 3 am occasionally or make too much noise. But it's such a rare occasion that I think I should be forgiven for them.

40) And despite my sleep issues, I do love to sleep! I can sleep for a good 10+ hours if I have nothing else to do. This is why I like to have a job (see #20). When I have work, I don't have any reason to just lay there and sleep, lol.

100 Things! (21-30)

So, since I can't sleep, I'll continue my 100 Things blog series. Some of this stuff you guys know. I'm hoping that somewhere I'll enlighten you though.

21) My biggest fear is mirrors in the dark. The dark doesn't bother me. Mirrors don't bother me. But you put a mirror in a dark room, like a bathroom, and I won't go in til the light is on. It's a spiritual thing, leave me be.

22) I repeat myself, a lot. I am not sure why I do. Maybe it's the fact that I've always had to But when you come from a family like mine, you don't get heard and have to repeat yourself. B doesn't seem to mind... yet, lol.

23) I also state the obvious, a lot. For some reason I find it necessary to tell people what is plainly in front of them or is, well, obvious. I think it stems from my penchant for being a know it all, lol.

24) I have a large family. I have one "blood" sister, but also have a step-sister and brother that I've known so long that I call them my brother and sister. My mom has 3 sisters who each have 2-3 kids. My grandma has a sister who has numerous kids and they all have multiple kids. I know most of them and am close to them, to one degree or another. My step-dad (dad) has a sister and a brother and they each have 2-3 kids that I'm not as close to. But that's still a lot of family members.

25) My mother is absolutely insane! Seriously! I have memories that would blow your mind, but I won't go there. Let's just leave it at, I'm the way I am mostly due to my mom. My biological father is the root of some, but my mom is the reason for the majority of my issues. I love her though, she has shaped me.

26) My dad is actually one of the quietest, and possibly craziest, people I know. He's been with my mom for 20+ years and dealt with all her insanity. He's always sat back and taken in what goes on in this house. But he's also one of the most insightful people in my life.

27) I'm typically not a very "feminine" woman. I like football, ok sports in general, really baggy clothes, beer, whiskey, and just being "one of the guys." However, there are certain people that bring out the more "feminine" side of me. These people know who they are.

28) I believe that gender isn't as black and white as male and female. There are shades of grey in between. I'm one of them. What I'm talking about is not sexuality, it's gender. The roles that have been dictated to us as we grew up only fit the black and white edges of the spectrum.

29) I'm a HUGE Chicago Bears fan. I can't completely explain it. My grandma says she was into them in the early 80s as they were "America's Team." Add in my childhood hero of Punky Brewster's show took place in Chicago, I think that may be it.

30) I love school. I love going to class, taking notes and doing homework. As much as I complain, I love it all.

100 Things! (1-20)

My buddy on Twitter ImWendy has been doing a blog on 100 things about her and it inspired me to do the same thing here about me! Yeah, I'm kooky like that, getting inspiration from others and all, lol.

So with out further ado:

1) I hate most condiments. It's easier to say what I will have. I like ketchup, barbecue sauce, cheese, and soy sauce. That's it for the most part. Well, there is cream cheese and italian dressing. Oh and I'll only eat ranch if it's the thick ranch just for veggie dipping.

2) If my partner has eaten mustard or mayo, I will not kiss them until they brush their teeth. I can smell it and it is nasty! You hear that B dear? I will not kiss you if you've had mayo or mustard! Oh and I won't touch it either. So yeah, no putting it on my honey's sandwich either. I won't open the bottle. That's something they have to do. The smell of mustard is actually worse than mayo, but both make me want to puke.

3) I will now admit that I love Britney Spears and Christina Aguilera. Yes, I do.

4) My fiancee is my best friend of the last 12 years and we dated once when I was in the army. He's now in the Army and I'm a civilian.

5) When I was in high school, I swore up and down that everyone hated me, except B. He followed me around like a puppy dog drinking my coffee. He has since informed me that I was actually quite popular. I was... I thought about it and have had it reaffirmed repeatedly through the planning of my 10 year reunion. Wow, there are too many people that know me, lol.

6) I love photography! I would love to be a professional one day, but I have more pressing dreams to pursue first.

7) When I was a girl I wanted to be a GI Joe, an astronaut, a writer, a ninja turtle, and teacher. The ninja turtle one is impossible, but I've been everything but the teacher (astronaut is figuratively).

8) I've been actively keeping journals and such since the third grade. I've been writing poetry and short stories since the 2nd. I love reading my old journals, stories, poems, and blogs. They bring me entertainment and sometimes make me angry at myself for being dumb.

9) I've been diagnosed as bipolar, OCD, and generalized anxiety disorder. The only one on my medical record is the GAD. This is because:

10) My shrink says that I am the most self aware person he has ever treated.

11) I hate shrinks and doctors. Usually they don't know what they're talking about.

12) I have no children of my own but have been known to call other people's kids my babies. One day I'll have my own, but not yet (and good thing too, I like my booze, lol). Actually, it's not the booze. I didn't want kids while I was doing my undergrad work, and have been lucky that I have not ended up with any.

13) I've been called every name in the book, dyke, fag, homo, bitch, butch, you name it, I've probably been called it. I don't fit a "feminine" model so therefore I'm pigeon holed. I don't fit in these holes either. The gender role dicotomy we live in is pathetic and is only hurting all of us.

14) I'm an avid reader when I'm not in school. I can easily read 50 books in a year. When I worked at Otto, I was reading about a book a week if not more. I did read alot of trash fiction, but then, I ran out of my own books to read and started reading the books floating around the office, lol.

15) I read Marvin Harris and Levi-Strauss for fun. I'm a nerd. That's all there is to that. We used to say in my Cultural Anthropology Theory class "What Would Marvin Harris Think?"

16) I love to cook! I love to invent in the kitchen. It's another outlet for my creativity, which seems to just ooze from me. However, I hate to clean up the kitchen. Ok, it's just the dishes. I hate doing dishes!!!! I'll do the floors, cabinets, stove, oven, name it, but I hate the dishes. Dishes are evil!

17) My ex's friends still think that my oldest niece is actually my kid, lol. Maybe it's because I've always been really close to that kid. She also looks and acts like me for the most part. Maybe it is that the child has my intellect. Maybe it's the fact they are dumb? I don't know exactly why but up till about a year ago, my ex believed she was too.

18) I am almost too open. I will tell perfect strangers intimate details about my life. It's not that I have an inability to keep my mouth shut it is that the need to tell these details seems to present itself. People have this thing about being very candid with me.

19) People will tell me the craziest stuff. I've had people confess to me some insane things over the years. Apparently I'm safe to talk to. I think I'm starting to get my old ability to talk anyone off the ledge. It's not 100% but hey, it's coming back.

20) I'm such a typical Capricorn! So much so, I was even born on a Saturday. Capricorn is ruled by Saturn, if you need it spelled out. I'm a workaholic and I will probably be climbing the walls after the first month I'm in CO and not working. I'll have to have a job pretty quickly, not just for my bills, but cuz I have to have a job. I'm also insanely stubborn and a natural leader.